Ah! What a WHIRLWIND?! Two weeks ago I blindly applied for a position as a nanny in Europe... I didn't believe anything would actually come of it seeing as how I didn't fit their requirements of being 25+ and having an educational background. Even the nanny agent said she thought I'd be booted right off because of my age... but look at me now!: officially hired as an au pair. Crazy. Ha!
So, my emotions are all over the place, my brain feels as if it might explode and my nerves are simply out of their element!
I know this is going to be an amazing experience. I had all of these same emotions before I moved out to Oregon and wouldn't have changed that year for the world. I know God will stretch me and grow me and teach me great things. I also know I will get lonely and overwhelmed (wait I'm already overwhelmed!) but such is life. I keep thinking to myself, "This is not the safe option. This is not the comfortable route." I have to remind myself that I can't live in complacency - not to say that moving to France/Switzerland is the only escape from complacency - but I also cannot pass up the opportunity. Haley, my amazing roommate, shared with me this morning something she learned in church. People are like cows. Profound, I know, but think of it in relation to freedom. As humans, we know freedom is available to us, but we become so accustomed to comfort and ease that we don't get out of our fenced in ways of living -- there's beautiful green pastures just on the other side of the fence and the gate is open... but we stay where we are familiar, where we are comfortable. That was encouraging. Growth and green pastures are around the corner... right?! :)
